I’ve struggled this week trying to come to terms with my self-professed failure… When I had this sudden epiphany where my perceived expectations of myself, and what I believed others expected of me would actually render me to be superhuman. So, today I’m going to talk to y’all about the most mundane topic of all. We’re human.
We’re human because we’re going to get heaps of awesome opportunities in life, and we’re going to proceed to mess up these opportunities in the most ungraceful way possible. We’re going to let opportunities slip through our fingers because we’re too busy thinking about things that don’t matter in life, or things that shouldn’t take so much dominance over us. We’re going to struggle to stay in the present and look towards the future because we dwell on things in the past.
This is basically the workings of my inner-mind in the past week. I’ve basically been living in my sea of perceived failures due to my ‘screwed up opportunities’, and I’ve gotta tell you all that that stuff really messes with your idea of yourself.
There are many factors why I felt this way.
1. I was at the pinnacle of my mind’s mountain of stress. My mind’s been severely struggling to cope with the fact that the holidays are well and truly over. Whilst university undoubtedly inspires growth… At the same time, it has the ability to null any and all brain activity. I would blame the 4 month summer holiday, but hey, you can never blame the holy-grail which are the holidays. Throughout the month, I’ve felt brain dead. I forgot how to university.
2. My unrealistic expectations of myself. I feel that any opportunity that I’m blessed with, I should and will take advantage of it. The truth is, as I mentioned before, is that chances are we’re all going to miss or screw up opportunities… And it’s normal. If we never made mistakes, then we would all be at this godly level of awesomeness right now, so much so that I don’t think the world could actually handle it. However, unrealistic expectations of oneself will lead to disappointment. It’ll lead to self-doubt and all the ugly stuff.
So, I’m not sure if this will help anyone, but it makes me feel a bit better at least.
Don’t expect more from yourself than what you know is actually possible. Don’t believe that you’re blessed with this ability to never make mistakes or that you’ll never stumble on the odd problem. Unfortunately, life doesn’t work that way. Be inspired to be the better version of yourself, but make sure that it’s actually achievable. Just remember, there are things you’re going to screw up in life, but there are also going to be things that you do so awesomely that it’s incomprehensible. Just don’t be too hard on yourself like I’ve been this past week, because the feelings are not nice with this one. Not everything’s gonna go right, but not everything’s going to wrong. If you get knocked down, there’s only one way to go, and that’s up.
Until next time, my friends.